为爱放弃

 
<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">我想，我们<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/wenzhang/xiaoyuanwenzhang/aiqing/20070819/分手%3c/a%3e吧”%20%3cbr%20/%3e&nbsp;“恩？你说什么？”她依然沉醉在美妙的礼花中，没有在意我说的话。%3c/p%3e%3cp%3e&nbsp;“恩听我说”我扶着她的双肩，使她能够正视我的眼睛。%3c/p%3e%3cp%3e&nbsp;“我们还是分手吧”我%3ca%20href=" huati="huati"  nuli="nuli"  index1.html?><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">努力</span></span></a></span>的又重复了一遍刚才的话。<span lang="EN-US"><?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">什么？你说什么？你是开玩笑吧<span lang="EN-US">”</span>她的声音开始颤抖。<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">我无力的摇了摇头，而后又点了点，<span lang="EN-US">“</span>我<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/xiwang/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">希望</span></span></a></span>你明白，我不能全心爱你，我很累，你知道吗<span lang="EN-US">”<o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">为<span lang="EN-US">~</span>为什么？刚才还好好的<span lang="EN-US">……”</span>我已清楚的看见了她的<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/yanlei/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">眼泪</span></span></a><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">我<span lang="EN-US">……”</span>我也不知道怎么回答<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">给我个理由好吗？<span lang="EN-US">”</span>她猛的抬起头，含泪的双眸压迫着我，使我不敢注视她<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">恩这个<span lang="EN-US">..</span>我觉得我不想再骗你了，我觉得我不爱你，我怕越到后来，我就越难受，我也不希望你受到<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/shanghai/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">伤害</span></span></a></span>，我不能这么对你<span lang="EN-US">……”</span>我显然也很激动。<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">那你就能这样对我？你这样就不伤害我？你难受？难受当初为什么要接受我？<span lang="EN-US">”<o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">这个<span lang="EN-US">……….”</span>被她一连串的问题问的我不知道该说什么，说真的，我也不想说，真的不想说，无论我说什么，只能是对她更大的伤害，所以，我选择了<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/chenmo/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">沉默</span></span></a>……<o:p></o:p></span></span></p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">她走了，就这样流着泪走了，走时只留下一句：不管以后我遇到什么样的男</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/pengyou/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><span lang="EN-US">朋友</span></span></a></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">，我都不会象这次一样付出我的全部，你们都是一样的，</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">……</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">我恨你！</span>

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<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;10</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">月<span lang="EN-US">1</span>日，又是一个应该让我永远都记得的日子，我一个人站在<span lang="EN-US">20</span>路<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/zhongdian/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">终点</span></span></a></span>站，看着手挽手走在一起的情侣，心里有种<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/ganjue/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">感觉</span></span></a></span>。<span lang="EN-US">“</span>我到底在做什么？为什么我会这样接二连三的伤害她们<span lang="EN-US">……”<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>

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<p><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">&nbsp;2</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">年前，我<span lang="EN-US">20</span>岁，在一所名声还不错的职校读书，显然已经消除了没有考进高中的阴影的我过的还不错，身为班干部，整天忙于班级的工作，很少去想什么<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/ganqing/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">感情</span></span></a></span>的事情，可是，却又偏偏让我陷入其中。<span lang="EN-US"><?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>

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<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">那是我们班的班花（至少我和我的几个朋友是这么想的），不知是什么原因，她竟然和我同桌，要知道，当时是很少有男女生同桌的，面对男同学门羡慕的眼光，我的心中有种说不出的味道，<span lang="EN-US">“</span>为什么<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/laoshi/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">老师</span></span></a></span>要让她和我坐<span lang="EN-US">”</span>我有时也会自言自语。<span lang="EN-US"><?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>

<span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">她真的很漂亮，上课时，我的思想总是会被她给带过去，我不想看，但又偏偏控制不住，那时我才突然领悟到异性相吸的强大能量。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">“</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">这毕竟是科学真理，我也没法改变</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">”</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">我常想。她好象也被我吸引，虽然到现在我都不知道为什么她会接受我（我长的也不帅，身材也算不上标准），我们还是走到了一起，这或许就是日久生情</span>

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<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">往后的日子，我们很<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/kuaile/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">快乐</span></span></a></span>，我的状态也特别的好，学习成绩总是名列前茅，她也在校艺术节上获得歌唱一等奖。同学们都说我们是被爱给催化的，我也欣然接受。我真的很怀念那些日子，说实在的，我觉得爱在某些时候的确是种催化剂，能让人焕发斗志，正如有些人为了爱而改变了一生。<span lang="EN-US"><?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>
<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">可是，<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/wenzhang/shenghuosuibi/"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">生活</span></span></a></span>往往不会都那么如意，就象港台片里拍的一样，总有些事情会发生<span lang="EN-US">……<o:p></o:p></span></span></p>

<span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">随着她在学校的崭露头脚，她的追求者也就越来越多，有长的很帅的，有才华横溢的，有很有钱的，还有在外面混的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">.</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">这无形中给了这些每样都差一点的我很大的压力，虽然我知道，她最爱的还是我，可是，我仍然难以解</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/kaixin/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><span lang="EN-US">开心</span></span></a></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">中的结，太</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/wanmei/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><span lang="EN-US">完美</span></span></a></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/nvhai/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><span lang="EN-US">女孩</span></span></a></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">总是难以让人接近，更谈不上相处了，相比较自己，就显得非常平庸，或许我真的和她不配</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New="New"  Roman'; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA">……</span>

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<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">三年很快就过去了，我们都要毕业了。一天，她对我说：<span lang="EN-US">“</span>你说我们要不要去一个地方工作？<span lang="EN-US">”“</span>不要吧，在一起上班不太好<span lang="EN-US">”</span>我考虑后说，突然，我愣住了，我感到我这一年来有多么的<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/tongku/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">痛苦</span></span></a></span>，在学校我们每天都坐同一张桌子都这样，要是到了<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/shehui/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">社会</span></span></a></span>上而且还不能时时刻刻在一起，那样的话<span lang="EN-US">………..</span>我都不敢保证今后会发生什么，毕竟我还是太小，我不能接受以后的更大的痛苦，亦没有对我们将来的信心。<span lang="EN-US">“</span>我该怎么办？<span lang="EN-US">”</span>我几乎要崩溃了，我突然好想马上<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/likai/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">离开</span></span></a></span>这些她，一个人有多么<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/ziyou/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">自由</span></span></a></span>，不需要为这些事而犯愁，可是我偏偏不能忘记她的笑，她挽着我的胳膊听我说笑话的情景。这一晚，我睡不着，直到凌晨<span lang="EN-US">3</span>点，我终于在下了决定后昏昏睡去<span lang="EN-US">……<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>

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<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">这是我第一次做出这么大的决定（比中考还大），也是我最<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/houhui/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">后悔</span></span></a></span>的一个决定。就这样，我们分手了，我的理由是我太小。虽然我知道这是个连我自己都不<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/xiangxin/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">相信</span></span></a></span>的理由，可我还是用了，她哭了。<span lang="EN-US"><?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>

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<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10pt">这是我第一次做出这么大的决定（比中考还大），也是我最<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/houhui/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">后悔</span></span></a></span>的一个决定。就这样，我们分手了，我的理由是我太小。虽然我知道这是个连我自己都不<span lang="EN-US"><a href="http://www.duwenzhang.com/huati/xiangxin/index1.html"><span lang="EN-US"><span lang="EN-US">相信</span></span></a></span>的理由，可我还是用了，她哭了。<span lang="EN-US"><?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>